Ending my yoga career after 19 years

Madonna playing a yoga teacher in The Next Best Thing.
Which in my opinion, was THE BEST thing!
Without Madonna I would not do yoga, nor have taught yoga

Dear reader,

First of all a little consolidation:
This blog is staying.

Tomorrow I will reboot my Yoga Challenge to do Bon Jovi yoga 365 days,  and I will write about it here.
This will make this blog the only expression of yoga, I will have in the future.

About two months ago I merged all my art forms together, into a Rock Star project, that included English and Dutch yoga channels.
I was absolutely thrilled with the idea that the Rock Star project would bring all my favorite areas, Yoga, Business and Writing together.

But the result has been absolutely disastrous.
My productivity has flatlined, in all areas.
And all I think of all day is that I “have to” make yoga videos, and beat myself up for not being professional.

I have never been less productive in my life.
Wanting to combine these areas is clearly too much, and it has paralyzed me.

Combined with the fact that I have found out that I will not teach yoga as a professional, in real life ever again (and only one day pick up teaching yoga to friends), and the fact that my yoga videos on YouTube feel out of alignment with the power house I am and the inspiration I know I am here to bring!, the only correct choice is to stop teaching yoga once and for all.

Talking business and Bon Jovi on video, is for me. Teaching yoga, is not. 
And not just now; over the last two weeks alone, there has not been a day, I did not want to delete all my yoga videos.
By quitting making new ones, I hope I can stand having them online, and that the desire to delete all of them will fade away.

But all in all, I have decided to bite the bullet, and I admit I have made a mistake.

That I have not just deluded myself, and given myself hope, that I would be able to teach yoga suitable for Bon Jovi fans, and build two online YouTube yoga studios, that we would all love and that would be fun and lighthearted!
But I have also given you hope I would be able to do that.

I admit to you and myself;
I can’t.

And instead of dragging this failure into yet another day, this has to end right now. It’s enough.
I will spend the rest of this week cleaning up all my blogs and channels, until there is clarity that I am a writer, a business teacher, a freedom teacher, a YouTuber about Bon Jovi; But that I will only write about yoga.

That is still a lot. 
But to me, taking yoga videos out of there, and acknowledging that I am no longer a yoga teacher, makes it not just bearable;
It makes it RIGHT.

It makes the project Rock Star exactly, the way it was always meant to be. Yoga does not belong in it. And teaching yoga does not get to go with me, from this point on.

Will I miss being in spandex in front of my camera?
Absolutely not.

Will I miss being a yoga teacher?
Oh hell yes.

I ve updated the Rock Star program here below.
And in the upcoming days I will adjust all my websites and YouTube channels.
Which is a good way to spend the rest of the week, because I have a pretty bad cold, and have not been able to work yesterday and today.

But I wanted to let you, on this Daily Bon Jovi Yoga site, know first.
Which like I said, will continue.
I started a 365 day yoga challenge one month ago, which was also one of the many things that suffered.
I want to start fresh and show you and myself, that I can do this!
The first month of this yoga challenge did help me understand I was blocking, and in a very bad shape mentally. It helped me to understand I needed to burn the boat and never teach yoga again.

Right now it hurts so much, but it’s nothing more than shame and losing face.
Which is ultimately absolutely irrelevant. Like I said, bite the bullet, apologize, and move on.
I fucked up, and that’s the end of it.

But it does feel weird.
Because in 2019 I did have a vision of what I was going to do, what I was going to create, and I called it Rock Star Yoga.
And to then not do it?
To then say, sorry I f-ed up?
It can mean two things in my opinion.

Either the vision was false and I just wanted it to be true, because being a yoga teacher gave me a sense of identity.
I have always been a communicator, artist, writer and mindset and business/entrepreneur enthusiast. All day, every day, I can do this work that I love without even needing sleep.
Yet the only yoga teacher I ever wanted to be was Madonna in The Next Best Thing! 

Rock Star Yoga was me giving a name to what Madonna in The Next Best Thing was.
Rock Star Yoga was the closest thing I have ever felt, to capturing that  dream. The closest thing, to the inspiration she offered in that movie.
So that makes it even stranger that I didn’t pursue!

The second option is that the vision was true, and Rock Star Yoga was for me; And I am missing my calling and life’s purpose.
But there is a catch to this one….
Because what I DO automatically, which is writing, and business, and studying Bon Jovi, and even making Bon Jovi videos (although, like the 365 yoga challenge, these videos have also mas-sive-ly suffered from me beating myself up for not making yoga videos).
So judging from the past years, the purpose, the calling, of wanting to teach Rock Star Yoga, has proven to take a toll on writing and my Bon Jovi work, two things which I consider far more important.
More, my calling.
If I have to choose, and judging from how little work I get done if I make myself teach yoga on video, I do have to choose; I d rather drop yoga and do all the other things.

It was just that being a yoga teacher did give me an identity, and of course, money. 
That made Rock Star Yoga so alluring…. It was the promise of a real profession (yoga teacher) WITH the coolness of all things Bon Jovi.

But upcoming July, it would have been almost three years since I started developing Rock Star Yoga, and I have been unsuccessful at making it work.
I will spare you how Covid and giving up my yoga space, have all contributed to it, because I think ultimately it doesn’t matter.

And with that, my yoga career has finally, come to an end.

~Suzanne
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1 Year Of Yoga, 365 sessions 

Starts tomorrow

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Title: “Rock Star”
or “Rock Star yoga/ business/ writer”

artists: Suzanne Beenackers, little bear Puux           
art form: performance art
phase 1: earliest expressions, mixed work, July 2019 – March 2022
phase 2: April 2022 – 

ROCK STAR
English YouTube Life lessons in Bon Jovi songs
blog Rock Star Writer

YOGA
blog  Daily Bon Jovi Yoga

BUSINESS
YouTube Rock Your Business

WRITER
blog World Between Worlds

My Dutch channel and blog have not been reassigned yet.
blog: Suzanne Beenackers
Nederlandse YouTube 
I have some ideas, but I haven’t decided yet.

2 Facebook pages
1. Rock Star Writer on Facebook
2. Dutch: Suzanne Beenackers Schrijver Facebook met beertje Puux

1 Twitter account
my personal Twitter account

day 4-day 14 Top Shelf (an extended stay in The Wilderness) | 365 days

In 1990 Jon Bon Jovi released a successful solo album Blaze of Glory, a soundtrack to a movie. The MTV interview with Julie Brown visiting his rented villa in Hollywood hills, was an absolute joy to watch! Video bottom post.

When I wrote two blogposts at the start of this year long yoga challenge, and naming the second one Day 2 even when it was written on Day 3 (but yoga session 2, I was already one day behind), I definitely did not know my time in the wilderness was far from over.

The passionate blogpost was titled:
day 2 The Wilderness | 365 days
about 1990, an intense post-touring year for Jon Bon Jovi, when he crossed the US on a motorcycle but also got on the Young Guns  II caravan which then led him to Hollywood Hills to produce his first solo record.

It was a time without band, without having a familiar routine to follow, perhaps even a time without full ownership of being the world famous rock star he had ambitiously strived to be and had then become it.
It was a time without all of those things, and it led to a year of both proverbial and literal wilderness (of New Mexico, and crossing the United States on bikes).

The blogpost suggested that since Jon Bon Jovi’s time in the wilderness had turned out to be a well of inspiration and growth;
I hoped my time in my wilderness would take the same route by committing to do
one year of yoga!
Although it didn’t literally say it, I definitely hoped 365 yoga sessions would magically fix something that had been haunting me for as long as the Slippery When Wet tour and New Jersey Syndicate tour together.

The good news is: It DID magically fix it! 
But definitely not in the way I expected it would.
And my stay in the wilderness was definitely extended by a day or 10.

So as I write you, fully renewed and feeling better than I have in years, and more committed to both my yoga schedule as well as my work as a writer, yoga teacher and business coach, I m telling you;
The magic never works the way you think it does.
But it does work.

It reminds me of the key mechanism to solution-focused information products, some of which I bought and some I only followed a long webinar that bullet-pointed the content that you would get in the full package.
They would always guarantee that the formula or 5 step program, would help you fix your problem.

On an unrelated note: These packages usually came with a money-back guarantee but in the fine-print it then said that you had to send in your homework for the first two modules or something, before you would get your money back.
We’re talking 5 years back or more, maybe it changed.
But I always thought it was a breach of privacy, since they are not entitled to your personal story for what in most countries would be a consumer right of return.
But my study of these info-products designed to “magically fix” f.e. your love life, did teach me an important lesson to what works, why it works, and what the key mechanism is.
Which is not that the program they give you brings you something: But it is that you have to let something go, or you have to acquire a certain skill or mindset in order to be able to adopt or implement the program.

For example, if I told you the solution to all your problems is in a jar on the absolute top shelf of a stockroom, you will immediately start figuring out how to reach it.
Maybe a truck, maybe a ladder, but you’d focus on how to get there.
And this changes something in you; You learn how to drive a forklift, or you befriend a forklift driver. You start searching the premises looking for equipment that could help raise you up.
You overcome your fear of heights or your fear of talking to people.

By the time you reach the jar, you’re no longer the same person. And very likely the person who takes that jar of the shelf no longer has the same problem your old self had.

After you ve implement the 5 steps for a better love life, you ve overcome so many fears and taken on several challenges that would have held you back otherwise.
The solution didn’t really come because you now have those 5 things in place, but because of who you had to become to get them there.

The same way my yoga challenge is working, and has worked.
And the past 10 plus days reminded me of that ladder/ forklift wisdom, that I had forgotten.

I realized that although my instincts had been right to set out on the yoga challenge; That the change was never going to come from the daily yoga, or the 365 yoga sessions.
But from overcoming the challenges to get that daily yoga in place.

I got to the magic jar, on the top shelf of the stockroom. 

top-shelf
adjective
  1. BRITISH
    (of a magazine) pornographic.
     
  2. NORTH AMERICAN
    of a high quality; excellent.
    “some top-shelf cars are shipped overseas”

Definitely not asking any money back!

~Suzanne
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1 Year Of Yoga, 365 sessions 

No yoga (Wilderness!): Sunday 24 April – Sunday May 1, Tuesday May 3
Yoga days: Monday May 2 (day 12), Wednesday May 4 (day 14)
Yoga sessions: session 3, session 4, session 5
Bon Jovi cds:
Bon Jovi, Bon Jovi (1984)
Fahrenheit (1985)
Slippery (1986).
duration: 3 yoga sessions of about 45 minutes
Type of yoga: 2x White Tigress yoga and 1x standing poses from free Bon Jovi manual. See below for: “Sources I do yoga with:”
Final songs always relaxation

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About me:
After 2 years, I’m my old self again! | daily yoga kickoff
About Daily Bon Jovi Yoga and Rock Star Yoga: 
Uncovering Rock Star Yoga; A Journey

Sources I do yoga with: 
1. free download, t
his is a 17 page guide
Bon Jovi Yoga Set List 2.0 – yoga framework incl sticky men schedules
2. White Tigress Yoga Workbook
You can find this book at the bottom of this page:
https://www.lulu.com/spotlight/rockstarwriter
3. Rock Star Yoga
Pure Rock Star Yoga is a free flowing form of movement (improvisation) without following a system. Just music.

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3  YouTube: yoga met Suzanne Beenackers (Nederlands) 
Reboot snel!
De cover foto’s en profiel foto al veranderd, het wordt echt een kleine studio, kijk maar vast:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCA81I4RdVvgtGK99T3Io3Ew

other:
yoga on
YouTube by me:
PRO videos 2015 2016
Archive home yoga – English

Rock Star Writer, my blog dedicated to Bon Jovi, sex, and rock n roll.
our Facebook page Rock Star Writer
Twitter account

Art & Popular Culture: World Between Worlds 
YouTube Rock Your Business

You can find my books The Little Mistress Who Turned Into A Baby Koala
and A Boyfriend Like Jon Bongiovi
and White Tigress Yoga Workbook
at the bottom of this page:
https://www.lulu.com/spotlight/rockstarwriter

beginner friendly playlists from my channel:.

artists: Suzanne Beenackers, little bear Puux           
art form: performance art
phase 1: earliest expressions, mixed work, July 2019 – March 2022
phase 2: April 2022 – 

day 2 The Wilderness | 365 days

In 1990 Jon Bon Jovi released a successful album Blaze of Glory. The MTV interview with Julie Brown visiting his rented villa in Hollywood hills, was an absolute joy to watch! Video below post.

These 365 days of yoga are not inspired by YouTube and Instagram challenges (unsurprisingly, since I don’t even have Instagram), nor by the ageless wisdom of doing yoga everyday.
Instead it is exclusively rooted in an early 21st century challenge of writer Julie Powell, blogging and cooking her way through Julia Child’s French cookbook in one year.

There were over 500 recipes, and she gave herself a year to cook them all.

In her footsteps, I ve committed myself to a year of yoga and blogging too. And although there will be days when I choose a short yoga practice rather than skipping a day, yesterday (day 2!) I could feel the reality of what it means to have this yoga challenge rooted in her cooking challenge, and not in the tradition of having daily habits.
I felt in my bones, this really is an entirely different thing.

That squeezing in a one-song yoga practice and skipping blogging, which would have been the deal yesterday since it was already past midnight before I had time, was in absolutely no way contributing to what MY practice, and THIS challenge was about.

That nor I, nor this challenge,  were about ticking off days in linear sense, where a day is 24 hours to do your yoga;
And instead it’s, well for one, more about the journey than about accomplishing anything. But as far as it is about an accomplishment, then it is about the total amount of yoga sessions.
Just like it is about the total amount of recipes.

And I like blogging, I like writing about it as well.

Although I do not expect to write a blogpost about every of the 365 yoga sessions;
There will be many.

So today’s session was with the album I originally intended to do yoga with yesterday; Blaze of Glory.
Jon Bon Jovi’s 1990 solo album for the movie Young Guns II.
Now this all sounds pretty dry, but it is actually the most exciting, storytelling-dense period of Jon Bon Jovi’s career, as the band was coming down from over half a decade of almost back to back touring.
Things had started to fall apart.

When in February 1990, the lights went out of that final concert in Guadalajara, Mexico, they could have gone out for good.

And it was in that state, where Jon didn’t even know if there still was a band, that he took on this project of writing the soundtrack for the cowboy movie Young Guns two.
Cowboys had been a theme that spoke to Jon from the earliest days of Bon Jovi. And for those who go looking for it, you can find traces of their presence on nearly every Bon Jovi album.
Musically, and lyrically.

But writing the soundtrack for Young Guns II would be the only time Jon allowed himself free rein, and take on the renegade identity in full.

The result was a record that traded the pounded and paved road of the world famous band Bon Jovi, for the dusty terrain of New Mexico.
It resulted in unexpected collaborations with an array of other artists, in an award winning record, and in Jon Bon Jovi finding himself.

He embraced the wilderness, the work of writing and recording; He even enjoyed the press release in what you could call a pr-collaboration with MTV comedian Julie Brown.
By letting go of the idea of being in a band called Bon Jovi, and fully going with what he was guided to;
He reinvented his music, his lyrics and himself.

Challenges are never about ticking things off.

They’re about following Spirit and following the road you are shown.

~Suzanne
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yoga journal Saturday APRIL 23

Bon Jovi cd: Blaze of Glory, 26 July 1990.
duration: about 45 minutes
yoga + final song relaxation, Dying Ain’t Much of a Livin’

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About me:
After 2 years, I’m my old self again! | daily yoga kickoff
About Daily Bon Jovi Yoga and Rock Star Yoga: 
Uncovering Rock Star Yoga; A Journey

Sources I do yoga with: 
1. free download, t
his is a 17 page guide
Bon Jovi Yoga Set List 2.0 – yoga framework incl sticky men schedules
2. White Tigress Yoga Workbook
You can find this book at the bottom of this page:
https://www.lulu.com/spotlight/rockstarwriter
3. Rock Star Yoga
Pure Rock Star Yoga is a free flowing form of movement (improvisation) without following a system. Just music.

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2 YouTube: Life lessons in Bon Jovi songs & yoga
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXpNMsIFP2U34A0yBKk8PUQ

3  YouTube: yoga met Suzanne Beenackers (Nederlands) 
Reboot snel!
De cover foto’s en profiel foto al veranderd, het wordt echt een kleine studio, kijk maar vast:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCA81I4RdVvgtGK99T3Io3Ew

other:
yoga on
YouTube by me:
PRO videos 2015 2016
Archive home yoga – English

Rock Star Writer, my blog dedicated to Bon Jovi, sex, and rock n roll.
our Facebook page Rock Star Writer
Twitter account

Art & Popular Culture: World Between Worlds 
YouTube Rock Your Business

You can find my books The Little Mistress Who Turned Into A Baby Koala
and A Boyfriend Like Jon Bongiovi
and White Tigress Yoga Workbook
at the bottom of this page:
https://www.lulu.com/spotlight/rockstarwriter

beginner friendly playlists from my channel:.

artists: Suzanne Beenackers, little bear Puux           
art form: performance art
phase 1: earliest expressions, mixed work, July 2019 – March 2022
phase 2: April 2022 – 

day 1 Daily Bon Jovi Yoga | 365 days kickoff

Me, April 3, 2014. And a vision I can only dream of! Perhaps after 365 days of Daily Bon Jovi Yoga?!

I have trouble keeping my eyes open, that’s how tired I am. It was a very long day, and after what will probably be the most fundamental but also the most difficult weeks of 2022.
Although we’ve all learned not to count on the worst being over by worldly standards, but yeah.
On a personal level, I would not wish these weeks upon my proverbial worst enemy.

And the context of today explains more than just why I m tired.
It explains why I need a project, a bigger vision, to rescue me!
Or at least prevent me from hitting cliffs and getting lost. Like a beacon. 

I m finally committing to Daily Bon Jovi Yoga, the way I originally planned to do, when I founded this site. And since we’ll be seeing each other blogging every day for the upcoming year, I allow myself to keep it short.
There are after all 364 days left to explain myself.

This streak of 365 days in a row is inspired by the 2010 movie Julie & Julia (trailer) where a blogger, Julie, starts a challenge to cook from Julia Child’s classic French cookbook, which has over 500 recipes in it.
Like me, she needed something to give her a sense of direction. The cooking project helps her to see beyond her everyday worries.

My Daily Bon Jovi Yoga Project is:
– to practice yoga with one vintage Bon Jovi album (-1995)
– a song or multiple songs from the deep-cut list from that same era (
 Bon Jovi 1984/85-1995 Deep cuts and cover songs (live))
– or to do yoga with (part of) a concert, or live performance from that era.

The yoga is 100% freestyle.
I do not plan, track or even remember any of it. 

The only goal is to see if one year from now, I feel better than I have in the past weeks, the past years.
And maybe even to find out if the girl in reclined hero’s pose, on her pink yoga mat – a photo from 2014 I recently recovered- to see if in 365 days she’s here again.

With her eyes closed, but not because she’s so worn out.
But because she’s laughing.

~Suzanne
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yoga journal THURSDAY APRIL 21

Bon Jovi cd: New Jersey, 19 September 1988.
duration: a little under 1 hour
yoga + final 2 songs relaxation, 99 In the Shade and Love for Sale

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About me:
After 2 years, I’m my old self again! | daily yoga kickoff
About Daily Bon Jovi Yoga and Rock Star Yoga: 
Uncovering Rock Star Yoga; A Journey

Sources I do yoga with: 
1. free download, t
his is a 17 page guide
Bon Jovi Yoga Set List 2.0 – yoga framework incl sticky men schedules
2. White Tigress Yoga Workbook
You can find this book at the bottom of this page:
https://www.lulu.com/spotlight/rockstarwriter
3. Rock Star Yoga
Pure Rock Star Yoga is a free flowing form of movement (improvisation) without following a system. Just music.

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2 YouTube: Life lessons in Bon Jovi songs & yoga
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXpNMsIFP2U34A0yBKk8PUQ

3  YouTube: yoga met Suzanne Beenackers (Nederlands) 
Reboot snel!
De cover foto’s en profiel foto al veranderd, het wordt echt een kleine studio, kijk maar vast:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCA81I4RdVvgtGK99T3Io3Ew

other:
yoga on
YouTube by me:
PRO videos 2015 2016
Archive home yoga – English

Rock Star Writer, my blog dedicated to Bon Jovi, sex, and rock n roll.
our Facebook page Rock Star Writer
Twitter account

Art & Popular Culture: World Between Worlds 
YouTube Rock Your Business

You can find my books The Little Mistress Who Turned Into A Baby Koala
and A Boyfriend Like Jon Bongiovi
and White Tigress Yoga Workbook
at the bottom of this page:
https://www.lulu.com/spotlight/rockstarwriter

beginner friendly playlists from my channel:.

artists: Suzanne Beenackers, little bear Puux           
art form: performance art
phase 1: earliest expressions, mixed work, July 2019 – March 2022
phase 2: April 2022 – 

Writing first, yoga second, and life will just have to figure itself out.

photos: Early 2014, in my yoga space. I no longer own a business nor a studio space, I stopped December 2020.

I m writing this after a satisfying breakfast, still in my bathing robe and already halfway through a can of black coffee.
To be behind a computer AM, is a familiar sighting. But I have not written for this blog in a while. And for the past four years I rarely let myself write first thing in the morning.
Because I know little will get done after it.

Things I am allowed to do in the morning are:
Yoga, cycling, anything on my schedule, appointments and so on, and getting a new business going (something you sell) and if that feels too overwhelming, then create videos;
Make Bon Jovi/ yoga/ business videos for my three YouTube channels.

Show yourself, share yourself, share your work, so you can later add a business model to them.
And since visual communication has won the 21st century, and because being visible, was going to be at the heart of a new career, then we all know text don’t count.

We all know that in the real world, writing is merely a tool, something people use to sell something real. Writing pour le writing, is something only a fool would spend their time on.
Let alone someone pushing 50 who is without career. Someone like that is in a hurry! And picking up a pen is about as constructive as online gambling. Just that with writing you lose time and your day, not money.
But since they all say that time is the only real true currency, whether losing time is actually better than a gambling addiction remains debatable.

But I think you get the idea why I m not going to waste time with something as futile as writing.
I still believe that if it had not been for the pandemic, my career in yoga would have transformed into something new. That it would have been a reinvention, not a finalizing. But that’s all water under the bridge now.

So to be honest, I don’t care that writing gives my life meaning, that it’s the only thing I m good at, and that I want to do it each morning and the only thing people (usually writers) envy me for and that I know how to do daily, and full of passion.
Because if it’s not making me money?
If it’s not writing I use to sell something?
Then at age 50, it goes on the pile with gambling addiction and other bad life habits. 

Or it goes on the pile of habits I m allowed to do if I get up at 5 AM, and I can indulge myself in before my real job starts.
Which is the timeslot writing will end up soon, now that I have burned all business models to the ground.
For this post, I will limit myself to discussing the yoga business model, but there has been more abandoning and walking away from. It all had to go.

What has happened in the past four years is that because I knew it is better to make money as an entrepreneur – because you have multiple clients, multiple services and multiple income streams – than it is to make money being employed, because you only have one income stream – and because I love marketing and sales, I have looked for ways to start a new business and tried out a few too.
But the most exciting one has been something I called Rock Star Yoga.

Rock Star Yoga was going to be a blend of teaching yoga in real life, whether locally or nationally and even internationally;
Of making YouTube videos, and of sharing my own practice through this blog, Daily Bon Jovi Yoga.

Where writing or business coaching, my two other skills for which I am qualified and that I can monetize, need work in order to be able to sell it; And would cost me hours for which I would get paid immediately or afterwards;
Rock Star Yoga didn’t have any of that.

The vision I had of being together doing Rock Star Yoga, WAS the Rock Star Yoga.
Just like a concert IS, the highest form of performance for an artist.
And an album, is their most tangible form of music.

The reason that within the immaterial arts, almost nobody is an artist or a rock star, is because you need to stay away from the things that make you money in the short run such as:
Cover band/ tribute band, teaching your skill, making courses.

If yoga is my art (and it is) then it is an immaterial art form, and I must stay away from selling it as yoga.  

Since July 2019, one year after I took my first steps on the path of slowing down my regular yoga business to give way to something new, I have known that something I called Rock Star Yoga, was going to be my second career in yoga.
Unsurprisingly, it has been a terribly rocky path! 
So July 2019 to April 2022, that’s two years and 9 months, before the uncomfortable truth sank in that if Rock Star Yoga was art then I had to ruthlessly pull the plug on selling my yoga at cover band, tribute band level, or selling my yoga as a yoga teacher, ever again.
I still hope to one day live in a big house, where I teach yoga to friends in my home studio. Just like artists have a home studio, where they play and record.

But even the idea of giving yoga shows, events where I teach;
Even that exciting idea that dissipated this week.
It’s gone.
Not just the small hope that I would teach locally, but the big vision too.
It’s all gone.

Thursday morning I woke up with the idea of starting to teach. I knew a location that would be ideal for Rock Star Yoga!
Excited that after 4 years of introspection and downsizing my yoga, I finally had a big vision AND a local, more sustainable vision for building a day to day yoga business, I contacted them.
But something in the communication felt so completely off, and I could just see how it was all related to the reality of building a yoga business.
This no longer worked for me.
Having a brick and mortar business, is a calling in and of itself.

What I had not realized is that once you re used to sharing your work online, there is just no going back into the real world.
Rock Star Yoga, cannot exist in a pinpointed, packaged up, tangible fashion, within four walls and with a company registered at the chamber of commerce.
Not as service, not as art, not as artist, and then subsequently also, not as a business.

Rock Star Yoga cannot exist unless someone has Rock Star Yoga as their calling like I have writing as my calling.
Business, teaching, a brick and mortar location, Rock Star Yoga?
They are all things that need your full attention.

Having four blogs here, three other blogs elsewhere, 16 years of writing under my belt and with my desk calling me every morning, and me ignoring that calling with the mightiest of might for the past four years?
Dealing with anything else than writing?
Is attention I don’t have.

I am only a writer, even if being only a writer is not a real thing.
Then I will make my peace with not being a real thing.

The upcoming years I will share everything I know about yoga on my YouTube channels, and develop Rock Star Yoga, or see “what it wants to be”, as it evolves, day by day. I will write here on this blog, about doing yoga and about Rock Star Yoga.
And I will also share what I know about business, on my Rock Your Business YouTube.

But what I will probably not share, is how blessed you are if you do not have a an irrepressible urge to be creative every morning.
Maybe you even have a writer’s block!
Cherish it, it means you can make something out of your life!

I have numbed out my urge to write with Netflix, with food (I m at my heaviest ever), alcohol, –
I can’t think of more. Those are the only three that have been strong enough to numb it out.

So I m just going to accept that all I want to do is write, and that everything else is just going to have to take care of itself.
Because after four years of trying to reinvent my yoga career or any career,  my yoga business or any business;
And gaining ten kilos and consuming countless Netflix series instead?

I m done.
I failed.

Writing first. Yoga second, maybe.

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~Suzanne
Rock Star Writer Nijmegen
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Bon Jovi Yoga Set List 2.0 – yoga framework incl sticky men schedules
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3. Rock Star Yoga
Pure Rock Star Yoga is a free flowing form of movement (improvisation) without following a system. Just music.

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3  YouTube: yoga met Suzanne Beenackers (Nederlands) 
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Archive home yoga – English

Rock Star Writer, my blog dedicated to Bon Jovi, sex, and rock n roll.
our Facebook page Rock Star Writer
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You can find my books The Little Mistress Who Turned Into A Baby Koala
and A Boyfriend Like Jon Bongiovi
and White Tigress Yoga Workbook
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beginner friendly playlists from my channel:.

Title: “Rock Star”
or “Rock Star yoga/ business/ writer”

artists: Suzanne Beenackers, little bear Puux           
art form: performance art
phase 1: earliest expressions, mixed work, July 2019 – March 2022
phase 2: April 2022 – 

3 YouTube channels
1. English YouTube “Liberation”: Rock Star Yoga + Life lessons in Bon Jovi songs
2. Nederlandse YouTube “de Catacombe” studio voor Rock Star Yoga 
3. YouTube Rock Your Business
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4 blogs
1. Rock Star Writer
2. Yoga Blog: Daily Bon Jovi Yoga
3. World Between Worlds
4. Dutch blog: Suzanne Beenackers

2 Facebook pages
1. Rock Star Writer on Facebook
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1 Twitter account
my personal Twitter account

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The 38 minutes and homemade yoga bolster, that could have saved me

I am “Forrest Gumping” myself into getting some sort of system to
– blog daily
– do yoga daily
– get my daylight and exercise outdoor;
And then – a girl can dream! – it would be nice to actually get some work done as well.

Last week’s celebrational claim that I was finally feeling better and was no longer losing the first half of my day to sickness, proved to be as inspiring as it was prematurely.

So with the first hours of my day still being gnawed at, by Life;
And me STILL not being consistent with the only thing that prevents a slow start, which is to radically cap all social time, worktime, and screen time to 7 PM, and only do yoga and housekeeping in the evenings
(a sacrifice I am apparently not willing to make in full) (or at all);
Under those circumstances, what I consider to be “planning”, feels more like Forrest Gumping.

Or maybe as something that would have gotten better results, if I actually had stopped making it so complicated, trying to control things, and had just put one foot in front of the other.
After all, I don’t know if you are familiar with the movie, but Forrest Gump’s approach turned out to be very successful, and it brought him far in life.
And he did not make it as complicated as I do.

So I don’t think I do him justice when I say I m “Forrest Gumping” myself through these first days where I struggle to make the Daily Bon Jovi blog, as well as the daily yoga itself to become non-negotiable elements of my day for the rest of my life. 
Because Forrest would have given it less thought, and gotten it right.
Instead of giving it a lot of thought, and still getting it wrong.

“Entirely wrong?” I hear you say 😉 
No, not entirely.
I am doing daily yoga, it’s just that the blogging part requires more thought. The times I wrote it after 7 PM, I paid for it dearly by handing over the first half of the next day, to pay for my sins.

So I will spent the first available desk hour of my day to writing this blog.
And yoga after 7 PM, unless I have an evening activity, and then I ll do it earlier.

One important reason I am attached to doing yoga at night time, is because although as a writer I am free to plan my workhours as I like, most people work daytime hours.

If I would do my #dailybonjoviyoga during regular office hours, I think it would be less relatable, than if I set it up to have to fit a life that is not about yoga.

I want my daily yoga be squeezed in at the edges of a workday, so that we are all on the same page.

And since I do not have access to my mornings, and also because I love squeezing in as many desk hours before noon as I can (it used to work up to 6 hours before noon!), I will never choose the mornings to do yoga.
Although the morning is the most common time to yoga, traditionally. For both people who have jobs as well as for yoga teachers.

But I have chosen the night, the evening, to be the time I practice yoga, #dailybonjoviyoga.

I share all these ins and outs about when to practice, and what my reasons were behind it, because I want to illustrate the struggle of picking a time, the  struggle all of us who are not Forrest Gump, and who do not automatically choose right, might face;
As well as that I want to invite you to experiment with it. Try things out to get it right.

I don’t endorse micromanaging your day, but understanding the building blocks of your day, and moving them around until they work, pays off.
All your activities have an ideal time to be done;
And just saying “first things first” is a simplification.

You wouldn’t organize a rock concert at 11 AM. 
The same way committing to yoga may involve some juggling, finding the right timeslot when it rocks.

So within this process of juggling yoga, I found myself practicing the first Bon Jovi album, from 1984, yesterday at 10PM. 
It is only 38 minutes long, and I had chosen this album for its shortness.
And because I was feeling dizzy and unstable, I chose restorative yoga, which is the final page from our free download

pillow Mojlighet by IKEA

Restorative yoga used to be a bit of a mixed bag to teach, in my video classes as well as a large portion of studio classes .
This is because they require quite some equipment, most notably a yoga bolster, which is a long sturdy pillow.

Where other yoga equipment, such as yoga blocks and yoga belts, can easily be replaced with a stack of books or a regular belt, the yoga bolster requires more work.
And most yoga studios I have worked in, with the exception of my own yoga studio, did not have bolsters for their students.
What I did in those studios, ideally, is to use two round, high, meditation cushions, instead of one bolster. But if I had a full class, there were not enough of them. 

So then I could not teach restorative yoga.

With the few full-length video classes I gave in 2020 I got more creative, and found a benefit of teaching online.
Because people at home can make a bolster by rolling up one or two blankets or sleeping bags, in a roll that is about a meter long.
IKEA also seems to be stocking bolster-esque pillows, currently. Mojlighet. But I have not seen them or tested these ones they are selling right now.

Sales of bolster-like pillows by IKEA have been erratic, and when they are for sale it sure pays off to get them while stocks last.
Pre-pandemic we have had three to five years without these pillows at IKEA.

But like I said, you can also roll up one or multiple blankets into a sturdy, one-meter long roll.

The yoga I did was the restorative yoga at the final page (schedule 8) page from our free download
But you can also check YouTube for “restorative yoga” or “yoga with bolster”, if you prefer to be guided.

restorative yoga, schedule 8 from our free download

There are 7 poses in the schedule, and 9 songs on the album Bon Jovi-Bon Jovi.

Practiced pose 1-5, in one-song-each fashion, with song 1-5.

Poses 6 (“backbend”) and 7 (“variation butterfly legs”) are backbends and I do not recommend holding them for a whole song. I practiced these poses during song 6 and 7, but by alternating them.
So let’s say pose 6 for a while, then 7, then back to 6, then 7. And so on.

I used song 8 and 9 for relaxation.

During practice my emotions went from feeling I was cutting corners because I wasn’t practicing standing poses, or other what I would consider “real” yoga poses, and had chosen for the shortest Bon Jovi album and the easiest set of poses;
To one of understanding this was really all it took.

That “only” doing restorative poses, is really all the yoga anyone ever really needs to make a change in health, relaxation, stress-release.
And that 38 minutes is more than enough.

All those years where I struggled to find a practice, and even to an extend the most recent years where I start-stopped doing Bon Jovi yoga, or Rock Star Yoga.
The years where instead of keeping it simple, I thought about it, got frustrated, didn’t feel it, and so on.

Yesterday, doing this 38 minute restorative yoga practice with a ten year old IKEA bolster, doing the easiest most relaxing poses I knew, I realized;
This is really all it takes.

But Forrest Gump would have been able to tell you that 1600 words ago.

BON JOVI – BON JOVI, 1984, 38 MINUTES

This is the track list:

1.Runaway
Jon Bon Jovi, George Karak

2. Roulette
Jon Bon Jovi, Richie Sambora

3. She Don’t Know Me
Mark Avsec

4. Shot Through the Heart
Jon Bon Jovi, Jack Ponti

5. Love Lies.
Jon Bon Jovi, David Rashbaum

6. Breakout
Jon Bon Jovi, David Rashbaum

7. Burning for Love
Jon Bon Jovi, Richie Sambora

8. Come Back
Jon Bon Jovi, Richie Sambora

9. Get Ready
Jon Bon Jovi, Richie Sambora

Hitting the yoga mat tonight, probably with These Days.
And I will catch you tomorrow! 
.
~Suzanne
Rock Star Writer Nijmegen
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yoga journal Saturday February 12

starting time: 10 PM
duration: 38 minutes, 9 songs
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Bon Jovi cd:  Bon Jovi-Bon Jovi (1984)

type of yoga: I used our free download
Bon Jovi Yoga Set List 2.0 – yoga framework incl sticky men schedules
and practiced schedule 8 
8. lying butterfly or restorative yoga with props
9. long relaxation, final 2 songs, Come Back and Get Ready

About me:
After 2 years, I’m my old self again! | daily yoga kickoff
About Daily Bon Jovi Yoga and Rock Star Yoga: 
Uncovering Rock Star Yoga; A Journey

Sources Daily Bon Jovi Yoga:
1. free download, t
his is a 17 page guide
Bon Jovi Yoga Set List 2.0 – yoga framework incl sticky men schedules
2. White Tigress Yoga Workbook
You can find this book at the bottom of this page:
https://www.lulu.com/spotlight/rockstarwriter
3. Rock Star Yoga
Pure Rock Star Yoga is a free flowing form of movement (improvisation) without following a system. Just music.

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2 YouTube: Life lessons in Bon Jovi songs
rebooting within days! ->
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXpNMsIFP2U34A0yBKk8PUQ
As part of our work together, I will also be making Rock Star Yoga or #dailybonjoviyoga videos for this channel, scheduled for starting in June 2022.

3  YouTube: yoga met Suzanne Beenackers (Nederlands) 
start snel weer op ->
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCA81I4RdVvgtGK99T3Io3Ew

other:
yoga on
YouTube by me:
PRO videos 2015 2016
Archive home yoga – English

Rock Star Writer, my blog dedicated to Bon Jovi, sex, and rock n roll.
our Facebook page Rock Star Writer
Twitter account

Art & Popular Culture: World Between Worlds 
YouTube Rock Your Business

You can find my books The Little Mistress Who Turned Into A Baby Koala
and A Boyfriend Like Jon Bongiovi
and White Tigress Yoga Workbook
at the bottom of this page:
https://www.lulu.com/spotlight/rockstarwriter

beginner friendly playlists from my channel:
I m currently restoring my older work. New yoga videos to support our Daily Bon Jovi Yoga / Rock Star Yoga are set for  late June.

 

New Jersey: 57 minutes. And the best Bon Jovi album ever.

Just like I fell off the yoga wagon – for reasons that are by now brightly clear to me, but I will save that story for another day –
the same way I fell of the Bon Jovi wagon.

Not just in the late 80s, because their music was too entangled with the person who broke my heart;
But as recent as last year.

I didn’t walk away from it, there was nothing dramatic about it. Just that the way I was creating art from it, my blogging series for my original Rock Star Writer blog, my video series where I was making reviews of the These Days tour, as well as the whole concept of Rock Star Yoga;
None of them were going anywhere, fluently. They all seemed stuck, and somehow “off”.
Because if they had been on track, they would have flowed. And they didn’t.

I can only really enjoy art, relationships, music, movies, if they inspire me to create something. I process my experiences, by creating my own art inspired by them. And when those systems, or series, didn’t take off, the input, the music from Bon Jovi could also not be processed.
For example I have not watched Bon Jovi documentaries either, nor read Bon Jovi books. Because if I don’t have easy-access Bon Jovi expressions, art forms, then I cannot process it.
And therefor I cannot take it in.

The reason I was suddenly so aware of this, today, when listening to New Jersey while doing my yoga, was because I remembered that when I was really into the music of Bon Jovi, listening to it on a daily basis, making review videos, attending live stream premieres and so on;
During that time, I could distinguish how remarkable and unique Jon’s voice was on New Jersey.
And today, Friday 11 February 2022, I knew, I remembered, that fact; But I could no longer hear it.

If I had not gotten my head around this album a year or more back, and remembered this fact, then I would not have been able to come to that observation today.
I am simply not that deep into it, anymore. Or “yet”; Since I know it will come back, now that through this blog, and through my yoga, I have a sturdy creative expression.
My involvement with Bon Jovi will take off again.

I will share in a moment how this relates to doing yoga – but first the piece of knowledge about that voice. About why New Jersey is so special.

First off, technically, it’s the album that had the most songs written for it, and there was talk that New Jersey was going to be a double album.
For my YouTube series Life lessons in Bon Jovi songs, the channel where in the future I will also be sharing Rock Star Yoga, the songs from this series will be including songs that were never released on official albums.
They are commonly referred to as “deep cuts”.

Around the New Jersey album, the video series that I m doing, will have the highest number of deep cuts out of all the albums. The number of songs they recorded, intended for New Jersey, is enormous.

But the reason I remembered being so struck by Jon’s voice on New Jersey-and lucky us, that THIS was the album they made more than double the songs for!-  was because his voice has a rough edge to it.

Probably as a “result” of extensive touring, Jon’s voice changed and on New Jersey it has not just range, but also a mesmerizing rawness and honesty to it. It sounds  effortless, off the cuff. Most noticeably in the garage band -recordings “Ride Cowboy Ride” and “Love for Sale”.

But like I said:
I remembered this. I could no longer hear it.

As was the case with doing yoga: The past years were spent mostly yoga free, and just like I had lost touch with the nuances of Bon Jovi, in a similar way I have lost touch with doing yoga.
I remember much of it, and I was able to “do” yoga using that knowledge and finding that wonderful edge in poses, where roughness and range melt.

But if I had not remembered it, I would have been unable to experience it, or get to that point, today.

With Bon Jovi as well as with yoga, I m stepping in not so much as a “beginner” but I am profiting from a foundation that was built years ago.
And both with Bon Jovi as well as with the physical poses, there is a tremendous and in a way definitely painful awareness;
I have been cleaner, and identifiable “better”. 
I used to live and breathe this, and now I don’t. 

But at the same time there is an understanding, that this time, any time when you are learning something, whether it’s an entirely new thing, or whether it’s something you fell out of, like I did;
That this time is so very, very precious.

If you’re starting yoga, or thinking about starting yoga; If you’re considering picking up listening to Bon Jovi;
Cherish it.
Enjoy this phase of not-knowing, of awkwardness, of newness. There is a deep and profound beauty in it, that you may never experience again.

I don’t think Bon Jovi knew they were creating their best album, according to some at least New Jersey is their best. And to the others it’s These Days, I reckon! 
Those are the biggies.
But I don’t think Bon Jovi knew, with either of those albums, that they were creating their best work. 

But I do think they were in the moment, surrendered to the work of writing and recording; And spent little time on should have could have, or only if.

The album New Jersey is proof that if you just focus on what’s in front of you, right now, that that is not just “all” you can do;
But that is what creates the most beautiful, rich, layered, and abundant outcomes.

This is the track list:

1.Lay Your Hands on Me
2.Bad Medicine
3.Born to Be My Baby
4.Living in Sin
5.Blood on Blood
6.Homebound Train
7.Wild Is the Wind
8.Ride Cowboy Ride
9.Stick to Your Guns
10.I’ll Be There for You
11.99 in the Shade
12.Love for Sale

Hitting the yoga mat tomorrow, probably with Keep The Faith.
And I will catch you tomorrow! 
.
~Suzanne
Rock Star Writer Nijmegen
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yoga journal Friday February 11

starting time: 6 PM
duration: 57 minutes, 12 songs
🎶🎸
Bon Jovi cd: New Jersey (1988)

type of yoga: I used our free download
Bon Jovi Yoga Set List 2.0 – yoga framework incl sticky men schedules
and practiced 1 to 3, and the first row of 4 (to Gate Pose)
1. opening sequence and/or sun salutations
2. balance poses
3. standing poses
4. transition poses between standing and kneeling & poses on your knees
9. long relaxation, final 2 songs, 99 In The Shade and Love For Sale

About me:
After 2 years, I’m my old self again! | daily yoga kickoff
About Daily Bon Jovi Yoga and Rock Star Yoga: 
Uncovering Rock Star Yoga; A Journey

Sources Daily Bon Jovi Yoga:
1. free download, t
his is a 17 page guide
Bon Jovi Yoga Set List 2.0 – yoga framework incl sticky men schedules
2. White Tigress Yoga Workbook
You can find this book at the bottom of this page:
https://www.lulu.com/spotlight/rockstarwriter
3. Rock Star Yoga
Pure Rock Star Yoga is a free flowing form of movement (improvisation) without following a system. Just music.

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2 YouTube: Life lessons in Bon Jovi songs
rebooting within days! ->
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXpNMsIFP2U34A0yBKk8PUQ
As part of our work together, I will also be making Rock Star Yoga or #dailybonjoviyoga videos for this channel, scheduled for starting in June 2022.

3  YouTube: yoga met Suzanne Beenackers (Nederlands) 
start snel weer op ->
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCA81I4RdVvgtGK99T3Io3Ew

other:
yoga on
YouTube by me:
PRO videos 2015 2016
Archive home yoga – English

Rock Star Writer, my blog dedicated to Bon Jovi, sex, and rock n roll.
our Facebook page Rock Star Writer
Twitter account

Art & Popular Culture: World Between Worlds 
YouTube Rock Your Business

You can find my books The Little Mistress Who Turned Into A Baby Koala
and A Boyfriend Like Jon Bongiovi
and White Tigress Yoga Workbook
at the bottom of this page:
https://www.lulu.com/spotlight/rockstarwriter

beginner friendly playlists from my channel:
I m currently restoring my older work. New yoga videos to support our Daily Bon Jovi Yoga / Rock Star Yoga are set for  late June.

 

These Days 2 disc edition: A 35 minute bonus album

This post is definitely me getting my Day 1 Feet Under The Table here!
Or since this is a yoga blog:

It is me getting my feet on the yoga mat.

Although in the near future I intend to write a yoga wisdom-inspired column here, I imagine the first weeks this space will regularly be used to introduce albums, and today it means recreating the album for you because few will have the 8-track bonus cd to These Days, and I have no idea if it’s available on streaming services.

I also discovered a playlist of this cd on YouTube, created 12 years ago, but it has two different tracks opening the album than the one I have: 
by Chris R, different opening tracks: Bon Jovi – These Days DISC 2 SPECIAL EDITION
So even if you do have the double album, I suspect it might be possible we still have a different one.

I created my own public playlist, here it is:
Bon Jovi These Days 2 Disc edition – bonus cd
And it makes a wonderful, short, 35 minute yoga practice.

Musically, the album is very versatile.
Let’s Make It Baby, is the sexiest Bon Jovi song ever written in the history of Bon Jovi. We’ve got a Wembley 1995 recording with Bob Geldof, and Tico Torres, David Bryan and Richie Sambora all bring it.

This is the track list:

1.Fields Of Fire
2.Thank You
3.Mrs. Robinson
4.Let’s Make It Baby
5.I Don’t Like Mondays (Live)Featuring – Bob Geldof
6.Crazy (Live)Lead Vocals – Tico Torres
7.Tumblin’ Dice (Live)Lead Vocals – David Bryan
8.Heaven Help Us (Live)Lead Vocals – Richie Sambora

Hitting the yoga mat tonight again, probably with New Jersey.
And I will catch you tomorrow! 
.
~Suzanne
Rock Star Writer Nijmegen
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yoga journal wednesday February 9

starting time: 10 PM
duration: 35 minutes, 8 songs
🎶🎸
Bon Jovi cd: Bon Jovi These Days 2 Disc edition – bonus cd
This edition was released in 1996, a year after the original album.

type of yoga: I used our free download
Bon Jovi Yoga Set List 2.0 – yoga framework incl sticky men schedules
and practiced 6 and 7. And 9 is long relaxation
6. Seated forward bends and twists
7. Lying down supine poses  – practiced up until/ to snail pose
9. long relaxation, final song Heaven Help Us

About me:
After 2 years, I’m my old self again! | daily yoga kickoff
About Daily Bon Jovi Yoga and Rock Star Yoga: 
Uncovering Rock Star Yoga; A Journey

Sources Daily Bon Jovi Yoga:
1. free download, t
his is a 17 page guide
Bon Jovi Yoga Set List 2.0 – yoga framework incl sticky men schedules
2. White Tigress Yoga Workbook
You can find this book at the bottom of this page:
https://www.lulu.com/spotlight/rockstarwriter
3. Rock Star Yoga
Pure Rock Star Yoga is a free flowing form of movement (improvisation) without following a system. Just music.

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2 YouTube: Life lessons in Bon Jovi songs
rebooting within days! ->
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXpNMsIFP2U34A0yBKk8PUQ
As part of our work together, I will also be making Rock Star Yoga or #dailybonjoviyoga videos for this channel, scheduled for starting in June 2022.

3  YouTube: yoga met Suzanne Beenackers (Nederlands) 
start snel weer op ->
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCA81I4RdVvgtGK99T3Io3Ew

other:
yoga on
YouTube by me:
PRO videos 2015 2016
Archive home yoga – English

Rock Star Writer, my blog dedicated to Bon Jovi, sex, and rock n roll.
our Facebook page Rock Star Writer
Twitter account

Art & Popular Culture: World Between Worlds 
YouTube Rock Your Business

You can find my books The Little Mistress Who Turned Into A Baby Koala
and A Boyfriend Like Jon Bongiovi
and White Tigress Yoga Workbook
at the bottom of this page:
https://www.lulu.com/spotlight/rockstarwriter

beginner friendly playlists from my channel:
I m currently restoring my older work. New yoga videos to support our Daily Bon Jovi Yoga / Rock Star Yoga are set for  late June.

 

After 2 years, I’m my old self again! | daily yoga kickoff

Just when I had made my peace that apparently, I would have to find a way to work whilst losing the first two to four hours of my day to feeling hungover, sleep deprived after yet another restless night (and not in a good way), and the added bonus of a pending cold which had been haunting me A.M. ever since the whole pandemic started; Yet all those complaints disappearing 350 days of every year I’d say, before noon?
JUST as I had made my peace that this handicap was just gonna be the way things were gonna be from now on, they disappeared.
Not exactly “like magic” because I made some sacrifices, but having my morning back is worth the price.

The price is that I stop work at 7 PM, meaning I have less than 40 minutes to finish this post. I was away for most of the day, out with a friend walking, cycling, getting sun on my face.
To exercise outdoors, daily, without fail; That too is a price. 

And it’s not just the computer work; I also do not see myself teaching yoga at night. For now, I give myself one night a week out of the house.
Even though the Netherlands are coming out of the pandemic, and regular life is resuming more or less as it did, my life will look different.
With nights spent at home, and also not writing, which is what I ve been doing at nighttime for the past 15+ years, if I didn’t have classes.

Now after 7 PM I will do my housekeeping; my yoga; and a special event tonight is that I ll be removing a wood splinter from my hand.
I work at an antique desk which belonged to my late father. It frequently gives off splinters, but I managed to dodge them or they slide under a nail and are easy to retrieve.
Maybe because I have my nights off now, The Universe has set up new challenges for me.

But I am beyond relief…. It feels ages ago that I woke up at 6 AM, without an alarm, and fully rested. I feel absolutely reborn, and I know it’s too soon to label what happened those two years (and that’s not even including the impact the pandemic has on our mental health), but I m going to try and exclude what I can.
First off, I do not believe I ve had Covid. I have not coughed these years, but I do believe I was very self-conscious about cold-like complaints, which I  probably had in the years before the pandemic as well. Just that I hadn’t noticed them.

The first year I had migraines, which were new to me. I never had them in my life, and although they returned occasionally in 2021, they were mostly a 2020 thing.

In 2021 I woke up sick from April to September, it must have been. That’s when the biggest health loss was, losing half my day time and time again.
I was happy when I got tested for allergies: A dust or other home allergy would explain why I woke up feeling sick.
But all tests came back negative.

The complaints however stopped.
Only to return a few weeks later.

And now February 2022, they’re gone.
I feel better than I have in years, I m absolutely full of life. But I also suffer from an otherworldly feel. Like a jetlag when you’ve travelled in the right direction, and at an acceptable time (so you didn’t board the plane sleep-deprived). In those circumstances, when you are at your destination, you are hours ahead of the local time.
You wake up at 6 AM, and go for a swim in the hotel pool!

That’s how I feel…. Maybe I also feel a bit like Sleeping Beauty.
“Where was I?
What has happened?”

Yoga wise much has changed since the start of the pandemic. I was still teaching to friends, and I was working on finding new ways to teach. But none of them could take flight, the pandemic didn’t allow for yoga classes. 
I cancelled the studio, and I can see that although I will resume teaching friends at some point;
Everything went exactly as it should.
I am no longer a yoga teacher. Not in the way the business worked, or what the profession entailed pre-Covid.

But so much new is about to happen.
Through this blog I will share my self-practice with you.
And within weeks I will reboot my Dutch yoga channel. It will be yoga for Generation X.
The English yoga will be kick started in June, with a 30 day yoga challenge.
If you want to see my videos sooner, you can start now;
There are several playlists with retrieved videos on my channel. 
Here is a beginner friendly selection of my videos.

It’s good to be back. In fact it’s great.
And I m so excited to be writing here…. and to know that you and me have a whole life together. If you choose to stay.

Our yoga journey may have started rocky, with this blog being founded mid-pandemic. But now we’re on a steady course to happily ever after.

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~Suzanne
Rock Star Writer
Paypalme

About Daily Bon Jovi Yoga and Rock Star Yoga: 
Uncovering Rock Star Yoga; A Journey

Sources Daily Bon Jovi Yoga:
1. free download, t
his is a 17 page guide
Bon Jovi Yoga Set List 2.0 – yoga framework incl sticky men schedules
2. White Tigress Yoga Workbook
You can find this book at the bottom of this page:
https://www.lulu.com/spotlight/rockstarwriter
3. Rock Star Yoga
Pure Rock Star Yoga is a free flowing form of movement (improvisation) without following a system. Just music.

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2 YouTube: Life lessons in Bon Jovi songs
rebooting within days! ->
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXpNMsIFP2U34A0yBKk8PUQ
As part of our work together, I will also be making Rock Star Yoga or #dailybonjoviyoga videos for this channel, at some point (late 2022?).

3  YouTube: yoga met Suzanne Beenackers (Nederlands) 
start snel weer op ->
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCA81I4RdVvgtGK99T3Io3Ew

other:
yoga on
YouTube by me:
PRO videos 2015 2016
Archive home yoga – English

Rock Star Writer, my blog dedicated to Bon Jovi, sex, and rock n roll.
our Facebook page Rock Star Writer
Twitter account

Art & Popular Culture: World Between Worlds 
YouTube Rock Your Business

You can find my books The Little Mistress Who Turned Into A Baby Koala
and A Boyfriend Like Jon Bongiovi
and White Tigress Yoga Workbook
at the bottom of this page:
https://www.lulu.com/spotlight/rockstarwriter

closing:
1. Shiva Rea on free flowing movement
2. playlist from my channel, of beginner yoga 
3. Rock Star Yoga opening prayer

2. playlist from my channel, of beginner yoga 
one of the playlists from my old work

3. Rock Star Yoga opening prayer
Inspired by a speech Madonna gave in 1990, when she was defending her daring artistic choices to the Vatican, this is the opening prayer to Rock Star Yoga:

 

 

We’re keeping the faith | yoga journal Sa 15 January

Keep The Faith, 3 November 1992, 1h+, 12 songs

This felt BIG.
After 15+ years of teaching a regular schedule of yoga group classes, the journey of letting go of what was, and reinventing a new type of yoga to teach and to DO, has not been easy.
Nor pretty!
But I stayed interested in yoga, in business, and ultimately it was also the vision that yoga could be combined, merged, and pounded together with rock music, into pure ecstasy;
It was that vision that kept me going.

That although, yes, the relaxation and stress reduction is important. And taking better care of myself in 2022 is definitely a priority. I m not here to build a new yoga business that’s going to keep me glued to my social media, Inbox, or floods my agenda.
Nor to create something that takes time away from your calendar, you’d preferred to spend otherwise.
But Rock Star Yoga, and it’s daily counterpart Daily Bon Jovi Yoga, are definitely about more than staying healthy. And about more than staying offline and not letting our mood be determined by the madness of the world.

The reason I came back to yoga, even though I could have chosen any form of physical exercise (I actually walk or cycle for over an hour every day), and any career, because I have other degrees and have fallen in love with marketing and sales a long time ago-
The reason I came back to yoga, is because the potential of what it can be.

Developing, or just “starting” Rock Star Yoga, and setting one foot in front of the other, is simply the absolute best thing I can possibly imagine doing with my life.

To take yoga, the Indian system of movement and breath, and to within that yoga system pick sides with the free-flowing forms of yoga, most famously taught by Shiva Rea (see bottom of this post for her talk on Burning Man); And to combine that with the energy of rock music, and perhaps even the energy of a rock concert.

To move beyond the silence, and the breath, and be taken over by another power, another energy, where we are no longer aware of our individuality, no longer aware of our thoughts or our worries.
And we’re one with the highest vision we have for ourselves and for the world.

It is for that, we must keep the faith.

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~Suzanne
Rock Star Writer
Paypalme

yoga journal Saturday January 15

Bon Jovi cd: Keep The Faith, 3 November 1992.
duration: 1h+, 12 songs
type of yoga: 
I used our free download
Bon Jovi Yoga Set List 2.0 – yoga framework incl sticky men schedules
and practiced 1-3 fully
1. Opening sequence, half sun salutations and full sun salutations
2. Balance poses
3. Standing poses
from 8. Legs up the wall pose with pillow
9. long relaxation, final two songs Blame It On The Love Of Rock & Roll and Little Bit Of Soul

About Daily Bon Jovi Yoga and Rock Star Yoga: 
Uncovering Rock Star Yoga; A Journey

Sources Daily Bon Jovi Yoga:
1. free download, t
his is a 17 page guide
Bon Jovi Yoga Set List 2.0 – yoga framework incl sticky men schedules
2. White Tigress Yoga Workbook
You can find this book at the bottom of this page:
https://www.lulu.com/spotlight/rockstarwriter
3. Rock Star Yoga
Pure Rock Star Yoga is a free flowing form of movement (improvisation) without following a system. Just music.

************

1. Subscribe to receive there posts in your inbox.
You can find the subscription button on this page, probably on the top right.

2 YouTube: Life lessons in Bon Jovi songs
rebooting within days! ->
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXpNMsIFP2U34A0yBKk8PUQ
As part of our work together, I will also be making Rock Star Yoga or #dailybonjoviyoga videos for this channel, at some point (late 2022?).

3  YouTube: yoga met Suzanne Beenackers (Nederlands) 
start snel weer op ->
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCA81I4RdVvgtGK99T3Io3Ew

other:
yoga on
YouTube by me:
PRO videos 2015 2016
Archive home yoga – English

Rock Star Writer, my blog dedicated to Bon Jovi, sex, and rock n roll.
our Facebook page Rock Star Writer
Twitter account

Art & Popular Culture: World Between Worlds 
YouTube Rock Your Business

You can find my books The Little Mistress Who Turned Into A Baby Koala
and A Boyfriend Like Jon Bongiovi
and White Tigress Yoga Workbook
at the bottom of this page:
https://www.lulu.com/spotlight/rockstarwriter

closing:
1. Shiva Rea on free flowing movement
2. playlist from my channel, of beginner yoga 
3. Rock Star Yoga opening prayer

2. playlist from my channel, of beginner yoga 
one of the playlists from my old work

3. Rock Star Yoga opening prayer
Inspired by a speech Madonna gave in 1990, when she was defending her daring artistic choices to the Vatican, this is the opening prayer to Rock Star Yoga: